22.02.2018

I was so busy looking for my thing that I have spent half of my life wondering what the 'thingy' is.
I have always wanted to feel proud of myself no matter what I am doing in the moment, which comprises literally everything. If I am passionate in stripping, I would be loud to tell my friends that I am a stripper, a well-qualified one and shrug off all the disapproval and judgement because people talk all the time. I will not be ashamed of anything about myself. This is what I am looking for. To be able to get rid of insecurities, and to be genuinely contented. I wanted to tell myself that it is fine when things do not make sense. Nobody has a say on my life. Times when I forced myself to fit in, to be normal because the norm could not welcome my raw self, I wanted so much to do anything so I could come to my senses. To tell myself that all I need is just the internal embracement.