20.02.2018
Started to work on the fifth day of Lunar New Year sounded economical.
It was supposed to be refreshing....right?
You know in Chinese there is a saying which goes like:"Shortly parted couple are better than fresh married lovebirds. "
I interpreted this as when you take a little break from work,people or whatever in life, it will actually makes everything look lovelier when you are back.
And in my entire life I have always agreed on this saying.
I strongly believe that human's feelings got numb over time but it were not faded.
So I supposed this is applicable to my job as well.
But it did not turn out to be what I have expected.
Because I could not explain where was this instant weariness came from the second I took in the sight of my desk.
It was not that bad. Everything was being too normal. The sight of piles of invoices that nearly filled up all the spaces I have got did not surprise me, not even a little. What took me off guard was the sudden emotions that rushed through me.At that moment, I did not feel like I belong to here, or rather I did not want to. Then I realized what were those. Refusal and denial to my current life.
It was supposed to be refreshing....right?
You know in Chinese there is a saying which goes like:"Shortly parted couple are better than fresh married lovebirds. "
I interpreted this as when you take a little break from work,people or whatever in life, it will actually makes everything look lovelier when you are back.
And in my entire life I have always agreed on this saying.
I strongly believe that human's feelings got numb over time but it were not faded.
So I supposed this is applicable to my job as well.
But it did not turn out to be what I have expected.
Because I could not explain where was this instant weariness came from the second I took in the sight of my desk.
It was not that bad. Everything was being too normal. The sight of piles of invoices that nearly filled up all the spaces I have got did not surprise me, not even a little. What took me off guard was the sudden emotions that rushed through me.At that moment, I did not feel like I belong to here, or rather I did not want to. Then I realized what were those. Refusal and denial to my current life.
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